La Vie En Bleu
A longer rant I suppose

I need to get the hell out of here.  Leave.  Move to California or France or China for all I care.  I need to go anywhere that isn’t here.  But it has to be right now.  I just need to get out.

I don’t want to go to this appointment.  What if he tells me I’m crazy?  What if he tells me I can’t go back?  What if he tells me I need to go away… I can’t stand the thought.  I didn’t do a damn thing, why am I being punished? 

Just because I “break your heart” doesn’t mean you can break my life.   I didn’t date you, too bad.  You are such a horrible person.  I was your friend for three years.  I held your hand when all the girls rejected you and I told you that you would find someone.  I comforted you when your pets died.  Screwing me over is a low blow, especially when you don’t realize how many people can  be effected.

My roommate, my best friends in the school, my boyfriend, my mother and father, my students, my teachers… did you not think that their lives might be fucked just like mine because of this?

Yeah, I thought not.  Drink piss. 

6726) a little piece of me will always be waiting for you.

Last appointment is today.  I wonder if I’ll make it…

6415) I know what’s best for me. Not you. So stop trying to control my life.
Doc, once you’ve been driven off a bridge at 80 miles an hour, somehow you don’t invite happiness in without a full body search.
Vanilla Sky
We’re on a carousel
A crazy carousel
We’re on a ferris wheel
A crazy ferris wheel
A wheel within a wheel
And suddenly we feel
The stars begin to reel
And down again around
And up again around
And up again around
So high above the ground
We feel we’ve got to yell
We’re on a carousel

Was desperation disguised as love or is this “love” disguised as desperation?

(via icanread)

(via icanread)

You’re a fucking cunt.  Because of you I might lose the three things I value most right now and the three things that I find worth living for.

You wanted to keep me alive, but I wasn’t going to die.  If I do now, it’ll be because of you.  Remember that.

Never have I been seething with this much rage and pain before.